Sometimes Isolation is Best Way to Achieve Your “Authentic” Vibration

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Being an empath and a psychic in today’s chaotic mess of a world has challenges all it’s own. I never really examined them out of necessity because for 8 years I lived with a hoarder (my ex boyfriend) and had a brief stint with an OCD ( room mate).  In order to survive the energies I had to go into a state of denial just to be able to achieve some level of happiness and that all by itself if a skill.  I can make myself happy and positive even in the midst of extreme, prolonged adversity.  But … the energy that it takes to “handle” the barrage of negative overload was so intense that my magick and manifestation skills appeared to be below par. And yet, I was spending hours meditating. Today I realize that when ALL my energies are channeled in one direction and not spread out thin in order to maintain some semblance of “balance,” I can literally manifest whatever I want … but it takes a conscious effort not to waste precious energy on just “keeping it together.”

mural-1347673_960_720For the past two weeks I’ve been consistently letting go of things and people that are not conducive to the type of energy that I want which is strong, free flowing and self-renewing. Moving forced me to throw away a lot of things that I didn’t need. And, financial concerns forced me to cut loose projects and people that appear to be a waste of time with little or no pay off.  There are opportunities and then there are traps that appear as opportunities.  Right now I have no interest in wasting my precious time on traps.

Even good intentions can be squandered by a lack of focus and concentration. And, the truth is I have always had the focus of a laser beam and some people don’t appreciate that until it’s far too late.

After making some major changes that incurred the wrath of people who were either not getting what they wanted from me … or from people who thought that they could “control” me in order to make me “better,” I’ve learned that I am my own guru. Seriously, when I’m free from the opinions, hectic thoughts and random fears of people, I have an internal compass that is very accurate. Furthermore, I think that I have a far better grasp on reality than the people who thought that they knew better. The difference that made them think that I was stupid or delusional is the fact that I didn’t worry or fret which they saw as being “responsible,” but which I see as being a waste. I fix problems … that takes energy … worrying about them and blaming other people takes away from the energy that can be used to fix or cure something.  Once again my laser focus has made me misunderstood, but at this point I don’t care.

This morning I’m vibrating as myself … I feel healthy … confident … and ready to tackle the day without the anxiety that I have discovered that I can absorb from anxious people. By myself I’m calm, cool and collected and I like that.

 

 

 

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I Changed My Frequency and It Changed My Life

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For students of metaphysics and meditation frequency and the manipulation and transformation of it are essential to spiritual growth. According to Mind Body Green

There are five major categories of brain waves, each corresponding to different activities. Meditation enables us to move from higher frequency brain waves to lower frequency, which activates different centers in the brain.

I’ve meditated for years, but it was not until a fateful meeting in April that a catalyst entered into my life that forever changed how I applied my studies in mediation and the occult. That wonderful agent provocateur is my close friendtony and writing partner, Tony Sokol.  Coincidentally, or maybe not, we were both into the vampire scene in the 90’s. While Tony was writing and staging the celebrated Vampire Theater in New York, I was Entertainment Tonight’s original “Vampire Expert.” He was kind enough to quote me in his article, “Interview with the Vampire: 40 Years of Remorseful Bloodsuckers” in the pop culture powerhouse DEN OF GEEK.

“Only the genius of a woman exorcising her own demons could have created a vampire rockstar to whom the modern woman would willingly offer her tender throat,” Marie Bargas, aka King, who was the Vampire Expert on Entertainment Tonight in the nineties, said after an impromptu interview. “Akasha’s unbridled madness is an aphrodisiac to Lestat until he is figuratively under her feet and he becomes the Shiva in supplication to her Kali.”

From then on we became “besties” and Tony was continuously encouraging me to do more writing and to come back to the forefront in the media in some way, shape or form. We have since launched our own ezine ENTERTAINMENT 2MORROW. When we met I was being stalked by whack job fraud who I had helped expose as a Stolen Valor. Since then she had sworn to “ruin” me and since she lives off the government she endless amounts of time to do just that. Tony helped me get through that by stressing that creativity is how artists “exorcise our demons” and he was so right.

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I was also in a dead end relationship with a man who threatened suicide on the average of every 3 days FOR A YEAR. Imagine putting up with that. And no amount of meditation and yoga could fix it. It was not until I was inspired by a desire to live a better life that I left that relationship and began a 6 month journey that forced me to move several times.  It was through that journey that meditation and devotion got me through without fear and hopelessness.  The sheer stress shaved pounds off faster than any diet I’ve tried.  Suddenly, I was a pretty woman again. During this time I was extremely fortunate to be working with some of the most gifted psychics and healers in Los Angeles at Mystic Journey Bookstore in Venice, CA.  And so with the combined support of friends and colleagues every day marked and improvement.

Today, I woke up to watch the sun rise while I sipped some fresh French Press coffee which is my elixir of life. My new beau is sleeping peacefully and I’ll be waking him up in a few minutes with coffee in bed. He is a man that I’ve loved for almost 2 decades. During my time in the emotional “wilderness” he came back into my life without all the bullshit that had kept us apart for almost 2 decades. We reunited under the red sun colored by the LA Fires and moved in together on the night of the recent Black Moon. He knows me. He has watched me grow. He has loved me even when he hated me. And we are finally together in a home that is beautiful and secure.

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To all my friends and fans my best advice is that practice and devotion are not enough. Changing yourself and your circumstances raises your vibration and your frequency in unison with your meditation. Do not be afraid to risk everything to get your life back. Sometimes it is the price of living the life you want instead of the life you settle for.

This morning as I prepare to go to the shop to do readings I am confident that whatever problems or crisis my clients may have I am well suited to give them the best advice … because I survived and flourished during my own “Heroine’s Journey.”