Being an empath and a psychic in today’s chaotic mess of a world has challenges all it’s own. I never really examined them out of necessity because for 8 years I lived with a hoarder (my ex boyfriend) and had a brief stint with an OCD ( room mate). In order to survive the energies I had to go into a state of denial just to be able to achieve some level of happiness and that all by itself if a skill. I can make myself happy and positive even in the midst of extreme, prolonged adversity. But … the energy that it takes to “handle” the barrage of negative overload was so intense that my magick and manifestation skills appeared to be below par. And yet, I was spending hours meditating. Today I realize that when ALL my energies are channeled in one direction and not spread out thin in order to maintain some semblance of “balance,” I can literally manifest whatever I want … but it takes a conscious effort not to waste precious energy on just “keeping it together.”
For the past two weeks I’ve been consistently letting go of things and people that are not conducive to the type of energy that I want which is strong, free flowing and self-renewing. Moving forced me to throw away a lot of things that I didn’t need. And, financial concerns forced me to cut loose projects and people that appear to be a waste of time with little or no pay off. There are opportunities and then there are traps that appear as opportunities. Right now I have no interest in wasting my precious time on traps.
Even good intentions can be squandered by a lack of focus and concentration. And, the truth is I have always had the focus of a laser beam and some people don’t appreciate that until it’s far too late.
After making some major changes that incurred the wrath of people who were either not getting what they wanted from me … or from people who thought that they could “control” me in order to make me “better,” I’ve learned that I am my own guru. Seriously, when I’m free from the opinions, hectic thoughts and random fears of people, I have an internal compass that is very accurate. Furthermore, I think that I have a far better grasp on reality than the people who thought that they knew better. The difference that made them think that I was stupid or delusional is the fact that I didn’t worry or fret which they saw as being “responsible,” but which I see as being a waste. I fix problems … that takes energy … worrying about them and blaming other people takes away from the energy that can be used to fix or cure something. Once again my laser focus has made me misunderstood, but at this point I don’t care.
This morning I’m vibrating as myself … I feel healthy … confident … and ready to tackle the day without the anxiety that I have discovered that I can absorb from anxious people. By myself I’m calm, cool and collected and I like that.