The Quality of Mercy – Don’t Judge the Victims of Natural Disasters

PORTIA (Merchant of Venice/Shakespeare)

The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blessed:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
‘Tis mightiest in the mightiest. It becomes
The thronèd monarch better than his crown.
His scepter shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings,
But mercy is above this sceptered sway.
It is enthronèd in the hearts of kings.
It is an attribute to God himself.
And earthly power doth then show likest God’s
When mercy seasons justice.

Today, as I read the updates on hurricanes Irma and Harvey I was mortified to read that some people were vigorously attributing these natural disasters to God’s way of cleansing the Earth and punishing the wicked. I normally avoid commenting on spiritual matters, but this is an exception. Natural disasters are the result of the imbalances in the Earth ecosystems that we have caused by polluting our environment and mistreating our planet. For example, this is the first time ever that 3 hurricanes: Harvey, Irma and now Jose have existed concurrently during hurricane season. If you want to say that Global Warming is a curse I’ll have to agree with you on that, but this curse was definitely self inflicted.

gali-bti-poor-dogs-abandoned-during-floods-3-59a3d8bdc9bf2__700Likewise, if you want to say the people who have denied their brothers and sisters shelter during the storm are wicked, or that the people who carelessly tied defenseless animals to trees are evil; I’ll agree with that … but by and large the people who were displaced and are suffering because of these natural disasters are not for you, or me or anyone else to judge. I have seen some horrible, demeaning, self-aggrandizing comments about “God’s Judgement” on social media and I am appalled at the lack of humanity that some people wave like bright banners in the wind.

As we begin to rebuild after these disasters the critics and naysayers of the victims both human and animal should be ashamed of themselves for their incredible self-righteous indignation.

 

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Sansa Stark: My Favorite Anti-Heroine Returns to GOT with a Vengeance

Sansa-StarkSince last season’s post, “Pop Tarot: Sansa Stark is the Queen of Swords,” I have awaited the return of Sophie Turner in this iconic role with bated breath. Sansa’s evolution from pampered princess to the Queen of the North has been fraught with the trials and tribulations that I can relate to all too well.

In the days following the broadcast I have come to identify with Sansa more and more because frankly we’ve been down the same road.  I too have been orphaned, abused and twisted the subtle ways that life and pain can twist you in order to give you the sinister coping skills to survive. Nevertheless,  I assure you my enemies often refer to me as a gorgeous monster.

x-men-apocalypse-poster-jean-grey-sophie-turner-375x600While my besties revel in the triumph of Gal Gadot’s WONDER WOMAN, I find the Amazonian Princess a bit to “white lightey” for my taste and hunger for the dark queen witch bitch that I hope to see Sansa ascend to … perhaps even the iron throne. Dani has the unfair advantage of having dragons after all. Meanwhile, Sophie Turner has already done an impressive turn as the fiery X-Man Jean Grey/the Phoenix.  Gadot has alot to learn about navigating through Hollywood and I hope she does well. Turner has already done it. I like Sophie.

As we count down to Season 7 of GOT I see the number 7 in magickal terms.

7 is a ‘magical’ vibration and is the number of the occultist and the esoteric. 7’s are secretive, mysterious, stand-offish, intuitive and introspective. An unworldly attitude means most 7’s need to be ‘protected’. The 7 vibration represents rest, contemplation, spirituality, sensitivity, sympathy and mastery. 7 is a number of the ‘mind’. 

As a magickal practicioner my fave outcome would be for Sansa to become a witch to challenge the Red Priestess in a to the death magickal war… Red Head vs. Red Witch in a knock down drag out magickael maelstrom. (sigh)

 

The End of My Personal Heroine’s Journey: the Teaching Story

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Today marks the end of a “Heroine’s Journey” that I’ve been on for almost 2 years through a dark time of harassment, attack and slander. Thanks to a very mystical experience that I had yesterday alongside 2 dear friends, I’ve finished a personal journey of self-discovery that has shown me that I’m NOT a victim, but certainly a heroine who has had to battle a human monster.

1. There are some very real human monsters in the world right now who are adept at twisting reality with lies, but this is their only talent.

2. These monsters are addicted to using lies, intimidation and manipulation because it is the only way that they can feel validated … because they lack the creative talent required to be celebrated as artists … or the intellect to be acknowledged as scientists or scholars … or the heart to be loved because they are loving.

scary-588939_960_7203. These human monsters hide in plain sight pretending to be what they are not, living a lie behind fake credentials, plagiarism and cruelty justified by the foundation of lies that they have created.

4. Once exposed they will retaliate by trying to destroy the truly talented, the genuinely educated and intellectual, without conscience.

5. They usually have multiple victims throughout the years because their lies are easily discovered so they must constantly strive to destroy anyone who can expose them so that they can maintain the status quo.

6. Their egos are ravenous monsters that must continually be fed with the distress of innocent people.

7. They are driven to destroy because they cannot create or they despise their own creations. They are driven to destroy by the instinct for self-preservation because if they are exposed their inauthentic “selves” will die.

In my case fighting this monster in a very public battle has made me stretch outside of my comfort zone to become what the monster pretends to be.  For 2 years I have been the “mirror” to this modern day Dorian Gray and this starving incubus of insecurity and self loathing despises me because I force her to look at herself in the mirror. And inside that mirror she sees herself for the pathetic monster that she is.I’m sharing this with you because I’ve gone through it and come back with a few insights. I have been transformed and returned from my quest with a teaching story. I have suffered in order to be able to tell you this story with humility and authenticity. I have suffered so that I can empathize with you as you go on your own personal trials. I have earned the right to be able to tell you how to survive this because I have done it myself. In telling you this story I am telling you your own story and how you can rise above your own situation because I am not stronger than you, or better than you. The only thing I have that you don’t is experience. And my experience qualifies me to teach you with insight and empathy … so you that can be healed instead of hurt. asphalt-1851281_960_720

The mirror that that I am offering you is a rear view mirror in which to see what you have left behind so that you will know how far you’ve come. I want you to be proud of what you have survived. I want you to be optimistic about how far you can go. I am here to remind you that your life and your journey is a work in progress. All of this has happened because when I tell you that it’s going to be alright you can believe me without any doubt.

I believe in you Lauren. Believe in yourself. It’s going to be alright. xoxoxoxo

 

Kali’s Way: Decapitate the Demon and Wear its Head as an Accessory

320px-kaliposter1940sKali, the Hindu Dark Goddess of Time and Destruction is startling figure of carnage. The gruesome necklace of heads around her neck drips blood onto her bare breasts as she stands poised for battle or for a carnal embrace. In the West many misinterpret those heads as human. But in actuality they are the heads of demons that she has slain. Her unabashed sense of self has always had a great appeal, especially nowadays to a new generation of women who refuse to be silenced, held back or held down. But in my case, my peers still struggle to rein me in every now and then when I can’t contain my righteous anger. Throughout my own life I have suffered abuse first as a child and later as an adult. But today abuse seems to have come out of the closet and become the standard bearer for the Patriarchy as it begins to struggle in very public death throes around the world. Remember  the remark about “pussy grabbing” that was almost dismissed as “locker room talk?” This is the Patriarchal tactic of invoking the myth that women actually want to be “pussy grabbed” by rich, entitled white men. As I recall it didn’t go over well, did it?

Mea culpa. When Fox News in Chicago reported that Angela Ferguson grabbed a beer stein and fought off her attacker (rapist)  I experienced a new kind of “feels” that I identify as “power.”

“When I kept hitting him, hitting him, he wouldn’t give up. He wouldn’t give up. I kept beating him, and seen blood everywhere. They say he had to have three surgeries on his head,” Ferguson said.

Somehow Ferguson pushed Grice out of her room, but she said he broke the door down and got back in. That’s when she grabbed a crowbar from under her bed and fought him off once and for all.

I’ve been molested and so let me make something perfectly clear, if I had  the opportunity to fight off my molester with a crow bar I may have suffered more physical harm, but the emotional toll would have been far less. In fact if I had the opportunity to bash in his head in self defense I guarantee you that I would have slept soundly that night. Because I’m a woman I already know that some of you are cringing with distaste at my confession, but I’d like to tell my sisters out there who have been raped or molested that wanting to beat down the ass of your rapist/attacker is perfectly normal. And please don’t tell me that being molested doesn’t warrant a proper head bashing. It’s not going to work.

In fact it’s much healthier if you embrace it and accept it instead of internalizing some missed placed guilt over it being “your fault.” This is what I identify as “Decapitating the Demons.” Accept the fact that you want blood, revenge and retribution. Do something pro-active. Buy a gun and learn how to use it responsibly. Take a class in martial arts and self defense. Put cameras up around your home. Carry a stun gun or pepper spray  in your purse. Don’t just roll over and take it. You don’t have to accept the cultural brainwashing that we must submit to being victims in order to be “good” people. I would not “turn the other cheek” if a rapist’s cock was being shoved up my ass. Would you?

I have my own “necklace of demon heads” and I add a new one every couple of years. I’mhead not proud of it, but I’m also not ashamed of it. It is there to remind me that I cannot rely on someone else, the police, the government a boyfriend or even a stranger to protect me. And there’s something more. In Kali’s hand she holds her newest severed head without shame, and without malice. She just holds it and we can see it’s frightened eyes. Think of it as a “deterrent.”

Listen carefully now.

It’s okay for people to know that you are not someone who is going to be an easy target, a willing victim or a passive plaything for their perverse enjoyment. You don’t have to roll over every single time and “play dead” just to “play nice.” If someone repeatedly insists on attacking you for no other reason than they enjoy it, or it fulfills some warped psychological need, then  you don’t have to allow them to get bored with you and move on. You are allowed to “sever their head.” Read the laws. Follow the rules … but take that head and hold it in your hand for all to see.

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Sometimes Isolation is Best Way to Achieve Your “Authentic” Vibration

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Being an empath and a psychic in today’s chaotic mess of a world has challenges all it’s own. I never really examined them out of necessity because for 8 years I lived with a hoarder (my ex boyfriend) and had a brief stint with an OCD ( room mate).  In order to survive the energies I had to go into a state of denial just to be able to achieve some level of happiness and that all by itself if a skill.  I can make myself happy and positive even in the midst of extreme, prolonged adversity.  But … the energy that it takes to “handle” the barrage of negative overload was so intense that my magick and manifestation skills appeared to be below par. And yet, I was spending hours meditating. Today I realize that when ALL my energies are channeled in one direction and not spread out thin in order to maintain some semblance of “balance,” I can literally manifest whatever I want … but it takes a conscious effort not to waste precious energy on just “keeping it together.”

mural-1347673_960_720For the past two weeks I’ve been consistently letting go of things and people that are not conducive to the type of energy that I want which is strong, free flowing and self-renewing. Moving forced me to throw away a lot of things that I didn’t need. And, financial concerns forced me to cut loose projects and people that appear to be a waste of time with little or no pay off.  There are opportunities and then there are traps that appear as opportunities.  Right now I have no interest in wasting my precious time on traps.

Even good intentions can be squandered by a lack of focus and concentration. And, the truth is I have always had the focus of a laser beam and some people don’t appreciate that until it’s far too late.

After making some major changes that incurred the wrath of people who were either not getting what they wanted from me … or from people who thought that they could “control” me in order to make me “better,” I’ve learned that I am my own guru. Seriously, when I’m free from the opinions, hectic thoughts and random fears of people, I have an internal compass that is very accurate. Furthermore, I think that I have a far better grasp on reality than the people who thought that they knew better. The difference that made them think that I was stupid or delusional is the fact that I didn’t worry or fret which they saw as being “responsible,” but which I see as being a waste. I fix problems … that takes energy … worrying about them and blaming other people takes away from the energy that can be used to fix or cure something.  Once again my laser focus has made me misunderstood, but at this point I don’t care.

This morning I’m vibrating as myself … I feel healthy … confident … and ready to tackle the day without the anxiety that I have discovered that I can absorb from anxious people. By myself I’m calm, cool and collected and I like that.

 

 

 

I Changed My Frequency and It Changed My Life

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For students of metaphysics and meditation frequency and the manipulation and transformation of it are essential to spiritual growth. According to Mind Body Green

There are five major categories of brain waves, each corresponding to different activities. Meditation enables us to move from higher frequency brain waves to lower frequency, which activates different centers in the brain.

I’ve meditated for years, but it was not until a fateful meeting in April that a catalyst entered into my life that forever changed how I applied my studies in mediation and the occult. That wonderful agent provocateur is my close friendtony and writing partner, Tony Sokol.  Coincidentally, or maybe not, we were both into the vampire scene in the 90’s. While Tony was writing and staging the celebrated Vampire Theater in New York, I was Entertainment Tonight’s original “Vampire Expert.” He was kind enough to quote me in his article, “Interview with the Vampire: 40 Years of Remorseful Bloodsuckers” in the pop culture powerhouse DEN OF GEEK.

“Only the genius of a woman exorcising her own demons could have created a vampire rockstar to whom the modern woman would willingly offer her tender throat,” Marie Bargas, aka King, who was the Vampire Expert on Entertainment Tonight in the nineties, said after an impromptu interview. “Akasha’s unbridled madness is an aphrodisiac to Lestat until he is figuratively under her feet and he becomes the Shiva in supplication to her Kali.”

From then on we became “besties” and Tony was continuously encouraging me to do more writing and to come back to the forefront in the media in some way, shape or form. We have since launched our own ezine ENTERTAINMENT 2MORROW. When we met I was being stalked by whack job fraud who I had helped expose as a Stolen Valor. Since then she had sworn to “ruin” me and since she lives off the government she endless amounts of time to do just that. Tony helped me get through that by stressing that creativity is how artists “exorcise our demons” and he was so right.

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I was also in a dead end relationship with a man who threatened suicide on the average of every 3 days FOR A YEAR. Imagine putting up with that. And no amount of meditation and yoga could fix it. It was not until I was inspired by a desire to live a better life that I left that relationship and began a 6 month journey that forced me to move several times.  It was through that journey that meditation and devotion got me through without fear and hopelessness.  The sheer stress shaved pounds off faster than any diet I’ve tried.  Suddenly, I was a pretty woman again. During this time I was extremely fortunate to be working with some of the most gifted psychics and healers in Los Angeles at Mystic Journey Bookstore in Venice, CA.  And so with the combined support of friends and colleagues every day marked and improvement.

Today, I woke up to watch the sun rise while I sipped some fresh French Press coffee which is my elixir of life. My new beau is sleeping peacefully and I’ll be waking him up in a few minutes with coffee in bed. He is a man that I’ve loved for almost 2 decades. During my time in the emotional “wilderness” he came back into my life without all the bullshit that had kept us apart for almost 2 decades. We reunited under the red sun colored by the LA Fires and moved in together on the night of the recent Black Moon. He knows me. He has watched me grow. He has loved me even when he hated me. And we are finally together in a home that is beautiful and secure.

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To all my friends and fans my best advice is that practice and devotion are not enough. Changing yourself and your circumstances raises your vibration and your frequency in unison with your meditation. Do not be afraid to risk everything to get your life back. Sometimes it is the price of living the life you want instead of the life you settle for.

This morning as I prepare to go to the shop to do readings I am confident that whatever problems or crisis my clients may have I am well suited to give them the best advice … because I survived and flourished during my own “Heroine’s Journey.”