I Changed My Frequency and It Changed My Life

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For students of metaphysics and meditation frequency and the manipulation and transformation of it are essential to spiritual growth. According to Mind Body Green

There are five major categories of brain waves, each corresponding to different activities. Meditation enables us to move from higher frequency brain waves to lower frequency, which activates different centers in the brain.

I’ve meditated for years, but it was not until a fateful meeting in April that a catalyst entered into my life that forever changed how I applied my studies in mediation and the occult. That wonderful agent provocateur is my close friendtony and writing partner, Tony Sokol.  Coincidentally, or maybe not, we were both into the vampire scene in the 90’s. While Tony was writing and staging the celebrated Vampire Theater in New York, I was Entertainment Tonight’s original “Vampire Expert.” He was kind enough to quote me in his article, “Interview with the Vampire: 40 Years of Remorseful Bloodsuckers” in the pop culture powerhouse DEN OF GEEK.

“Only the genius of a woman exorcising her own demons could have created a vampire rockstar to whom the modern woman would willingly offer her tender throat,” Marie Bargas, aka King, who was the Vampire Expert on Entertainment Tonight in the nineties, said after an impromptu interview. “Akasha’s unbridled madness is an aphrodisiac to Lestat until he is figuratively under her feet and he becomes the Shiva in supplication to her Kali.”

From then on we became “besties” and Tony was continuously encouraging me to do more writing and to come back to the forefront in the media in some way, shape or form. We have since launched our own ezine ENTERTAINMENT 2MORROW. When we met I was being stalked by whack job fraud who I had helped expose as a Stolen Valor. Since then she had sworn to “ruin” me and since she lives off the government she endless amounts of time to do just that. Tony helped me get through that by stressing that creativity is how artists “exorcise our demons” and he was so right.

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I was also in a dead end relationship with a man who threatened suicide on the average of every 3 days FOR A YEAR. Imagine putting up with that. And no amount of meditation and yoga could fix it. It was not until I was inspired by a desire to live a better life that I left that relationship and began a 6 month journey that forced me to move several times.  It was through that journey that meditation and devotion got me through without fear and hopelessness.  The sheer stress shaved pounds off faster than any diet I’ve tried.  Suddenly, I was a pretty woman again. During this time I was extremely fortunate to be working with some of the most gifted psychics and healers in Los Angeles at Mystic Journey Bookstore in Venice, CA.  And so with the combined support of friends and colleagues every day marked and improvement.

Today, I woke up to watch the sun rise while I sipped some fresh French Press coffee which is my elixir of life. My new beau is sleeping peacefully and I’ll be waking him up in a few minutes with coffee in bed. He is a man that I’ve loved for almost 2 decades. During my time in the emotional “wilderness” he came back into my life without all the bullshit that had kept us apart for almost 2 decades. We reunited under the red sun colored by the LA Fires and moved in together on the night of the recent Black Moon. He knows me. He has watched me grow. He has loved me even when he hated me. And we are finally together in a home that is beautiful and secure.

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To all my friends and fans my best advice is that practice and devotion are not enough. Changing yourself and your circumstances raises your vibration and your frequency in unison with your meditation. Do not be afraid to risk everything to get your life back. Sometimes it is the price of living the life you want instead of the life you settle for.

This morning as I prepare to go to the shop to do readings I am confident that whatever problems or crisis my clients may have I am well suited to give them the best advice … because I survived and flourished during my own “Heroine’s Journey.”

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Dear Diary, Mercury Retrograde Ended Another Cycle of the Ugly Duckling Thanks to Sarasvati

Dear Diary,

swan-1639154_960_720Ever since childhood I have loved and connected with the fairy tale The Ugly Duckling by Danish Author Hans Christian Anderson because through the years it has been a recurring pattern in my life. As a child I was bullied because I was much smaller than the other kids and had to learn English because I had just arrived from the Philippines. By the end of grade school I had become an honor student. In my teens I blossomed from a plump fifteen year old into a stunning college freshman in just two short years. Later, in my professional life I rose from an intern at a PR firm to the in-house PR for a Beverly Hills couture accessory designer. This past decade was the longest I have ever had to reinvent myself, but this year after 8 years in a stunted relationship I left and embarked on yet another new life even though I’m no longer a Spring Chicken.

depression-501319_640In order to survive after the crash of 2008 I had to reinvent myself as a professional psychic because frankly no one was buying hand bags at $2,000 a pop. It was a fun 15 years of fashion, excess and glamour that left me fairly spoiled. In those days I did what I wanted when I wanted. I bought far too many shoes and hand bags. And during a time when I was easily getting $10,000 a season in free swag, goodies and trips I never thought about saving for a rainy day. And then suddenly, the crash brought all of that to a screeching halt. An entire way of life evaporated and in its place was the challenge to find a new way or leave LA to eek out a new living in a small town.

I was fortunate because at the time I thought I had found my true love. I believed with all my heart that love would conquer all and I could be satisfied with a little psychic business and a charming little apartment in the Valley with two dogs. For the first couple of years I reveled in the stability and the constant love and affection. Those years were truly happy and I don’t regret any of them. But, like all good dreams that too came to an end as the the relationship became confining and my partner was struck with a melancholy that would eventually destroy him. Let’s just say that story belongs to him to tell.

swan-1255467_640For the past several months I’ve been through the ringer. First I was called a “whore” for leaving an 8 year relationship even though I had my reasons. I was stalked by a troll who was determined to destroy me for rejecting her both sexually and professionally and I was misjudged and misunderstood by many people who would rather look at a woman in transition and turn away because women around here have “expiration dates.”  If I had not been somewhat attractive I would have been completely invisible because the sad truth is that our society doesn’t champion women. And furthermore when I shared my plans, some people who didn’t even know me or my capabilities told me that I was delusional. I believe that this is always because people are completely oblivious to talent if they are not talented themselves. Why?  My creative friends who are at the tops of their fields motivated me to keep doing what I was doing because they could feel that I was going to “pop.”  Today, I can say with some certainty that my reinvention is complete. I have become someone else. I have become someone more. I have become someone new.

 

It is no coincidence that for months now I have been meditating on the Swan or Hamsa of Sarasvati. For me Sarasvati the Hindu Goddess of Wisdom and Music is the mystical compass through which I always find my way. She is the one who dictated the Vedas and is responsible for “Vak” or Divine Speech. Hers is the Voice inside my head that directs me when I am doing readings. It is her genius that moves all my good ideas, my best writing, my creative style … I give honor to this particular Shakti because the consort of Brahma is ever the spark of creation.

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